Are there any "anniversaries" in you future you just don't want to see?

In one month and 6 days I'll "celebrate" the anniversary of my husband, soul-mate and best friend's death. As the date approaches I find myself trying to avoid those reminders that he isn't physically here, yet as I do so, I am bombarded with such sweet remembrances of him that I can't put it aside. I was mad as hell about his ping the way he did ... he died in a car accident (my little Miata) driving too fast on a meandering mountain road (I'm almost positive he was dirving entirely too fast and lost control of that little sports car as he was taken by her "ability" to "hug" the road ... despite my constant warning that she was extremely sensitive warned him numerous times about how easy it was to over-correct her). I'm no longer angry about his ping, still hurt quite a bit about him not being here, but dealing with it. But, I sure don't want to see this date hit the calendar and reliving that entire episode of our lives.